True Will | Esoteknix

Kenn Kitchen
5 min readJul 6, 2023

I remember a discussion from a few years ago with a Christian friend. Because I have studied and drawn upon Buddhism, Taoism, modern paganism, etc., he said that I was “picking and choosing.”

Albeit perhaps from a different perspective, I understand how cherry picking can be a negative thing among spiritual paths whose purpose is to help us grow. It’s a bit like exercise; skip the hard bits, and you’re probably not improving.

As my friend and I delved deeper into our discussion, however, it seemed apparent that he meant something entirely different. It seemed that what he found objectionable was that I had reviewed many philosophies and spiritual paths and chosen those that resonated with me. To him, there is only one truth and one correct path; the idea that people might search the world over and learn from many different paths before settling down and practicing that which serves them well was downright heretical.

It would be a rabbit trail for me to delve into why organized religions frown upon people thinking for themselves or making their own decisions, but that’s a whole other post. This post is about making decisions for ourselves and how that’s the best thing we can do to foster our personal growth.

“Not my will…”

My personal Christian upbringing was Protestant and fundamentalist, which means that my experiences a) don’t relate very well to Catholic Christianity and b) were radical and extreme compared to many modern Christians. (The same is true of my friend, of whom I spoke earlier in this post.)

We were worthless worms and hapless sinners, and any value that we had came from God’s ability to look upon shit-stains such as ourselves and show a bit of mercy. If our thoughts and actions didn’t agree with their interpretation of God’s will, then our thoughts and actions were wrong. God’s will was all that mattered; not ours.

If you’ve read my post on The Knowledge of Good and Evil, you’re perhaps aware of how I interpret the Bible — through the lens of a wider world-view mixed with an acceptance of the conclusions of non-biased scholars. Honestly, it has, for the most part, become irrelevant to me. I do not find it beneficial. When the naked lady in the Garden of Eden wanted me to partake of the fruit, I was totally…



Kenn Kitchen

Cat lover, coder, server nerd, autodidactic polymath, free thinker.